Thursday, October 17, 2019

Fall 2019: Season of Math


Hey 3 followers 

3 musketeers 

Here’s 1 new blog

I have very little hope that our slow internet will 
Actually let me get this done... 

Gloom n doom 

Yadda yadda 



here I sit, although today it’s raining 

There’s Charli Girl... 


Here’s Kit he is 1 sassy cat

Now here’s me...

No picture...

Just 1 person 

Counting my spoons (maybe 3)

Do you know that invisible illness analogy?

It’s a good 1

I was looking back at some of my old fall blogs...

Wow I had so much fun and energy...

Dare I say it was spritely ???

Do y’all have a favorite 1?

Well, I’m not sure what’s happening this year...

This 1 year

It’s almost next year 

Maybe by this time next year...

I’ve had a number of days

And a fair number of happenings 

That have taxed me in 2 ways

And I would say 3...

1: mental
2: physical 
(3: emotional)

But I definitely feel like the 2 in conjunction 

Made 1 weird combo that made the 3rd
Short circuit here and there 

Of course this has added up to a perfect storm 
Of Chronic Fatigue like symptoms 

Yay

How’d ya know what I’ve been wanting forever 

You just know me so well

Thanks Universe 

Lol

Now the number of things 
That I feel or don’t feel 
Like doing 
Or whatever 
Mount up

I’m not making good choices 
Because I can’t concentrate 
Unless I’m working 
Because work has clear boundaries 
Rules
It’s regimented
It’s so relaxing 

It is the saving grace

The 1 saving grace

The rest is like 1 of those sci-fi movies 

Where the person 
Who can pick up on all the cacophony 
Of the subconscious realm 
all of a sudden 
Can here all of the thoughts 
From all of the people 
And all of the happenings
All at once

1,000,000s of things 

That’s me

And when I sleep at night
My dreams are like one of those
Robert Altman films
Where you scan the room 
And all of the conversations 
Are happening all at once
And you can only pick out two words
Or 1 phrase
Here
Or 
There 

On top of that
Body aches that wake me
As I toss n turn

I’m waiting this thing out
Editing down
Things I would like to be doing 
1 by 1

Hoping I’ll be able to dig out
1 step at a time
Throwing everything I know 
About healing
About life
About counting spoons
And respecting the truth in that

I’ve spent the last 10 months 

Pushing

Now I will spend however long it takes

Pulling myself back up

1 fistful of metaphorical rope
At a time 

I hope you all have been doing well 
Enjoy all the fall blogs that are here 

I will see if there are more than 2 pics to share

Of this 1 fall

Make yours a great 1
Share if you can
XOXO
~JM