Monday, July 20, 2020

Summer 2020: gratitude

there are so many things 

going on 

in the world 

right

now

way more than enough

to 

break us all

&

make us want to 

give up

go away

stop 

loving 

living

where 

or when

could we possibly

start 

having normal 

pieces 

fractured lil baby pieces 

of what we thought our lives once were

again

we are so tired

and definitely a good bit pissed off

but 

we need everything we can put in alinement 

so we can put together what the new normal will look like

if the vibe is high enough

we could be in for something really good

that's why I'm making time to focus 

on the good energy

completely 

having moments

not slathered 

in the heavy muck 

that our lives are trying to make it through 

right now

making the decision

to have this moment 

be my 

breath of fresh air

to dive back into the fray

stronger than before.





pink bee balm


stress management tools

cats vs pickles

very soothing

2 pack for 10 bucks


the second wave of Phoebe birds 

we've never had two rounds of chicks before


pretty pretty luna moth

just hangin by the front door


lil kit is excited for me to take an ootd pic

this was my birthday

lookout I'm wearing something 

other than pajamas!



had to bring in some lovely blooms!!!


Columbine that volunteered in the backyard


humming birds loving the red bee balm in the front garden


the first item is up on PainterLeFay 

the etsy shop


but that bee balm tho...


there was CAKE

there could be more cake too...

there is a GF Chocolate Cake Mix in the kitchen

do y'all like mixes as much as I do


making the big twig trellises 

for the bittersweet to climb on

its better than letting the vines climb on everything 

around them and kill all the nice planty friends


wild blueberries

we let the wildlife eat these

these wee lil plants wouldn't really give us 

enough to do anything with

and I really like having something to give the 

lovely lil beings that visit


one of the dandelion puffs from this year


finally got some mosses etc in the faux window box out back

so green

 
the first flush of wisteria was amazing

we've had this baby for 3yrs now

and this is the first year that we are having new buds

second flush is on the way!



the only peony in the garden 

so far

had this one for a year

came back and was so pretty

I think it needs friends!


lilies!!!!


so many lilies!!!


random

I was able to organize my hand sewing kit

and 

my crafty glue gun stuff

in separate containers no less

I'm definitely winning 


ooooo

I almost forgot about the fluffy white iris!

I bought this one last year and I am so pleased that its doing great

it had 4 blooms this year

yay

always glad when things 

survive after my guessing game of new gardener madness


lil Kit being the cute


oooo more lilies


the king of cute


oh, here's that plate that had the cake...

lets circle back to cake...

its not that my devices don't want to put the pics in the order that I want

its that the universe wants us to think about cake again...

I see you universe

agreed

cake is the best thing to think about twice


the new frog pond

I called it that bc I had that lil frog statue to put there...

wait for it...


pumpkin seeds

we shall see if anything really comes of this experiment


close up of our Fairy Grasslands


Black Eyed Susan decided to crash the party

she doesn't know that she has been invited all along

love

her

so 

much

she brought a friend too

I told them both that they are very welcome to stay as long 

as they want

like 

4evaaaaa plzzzzzz


deer have detected the young saplings that grow all around

and maybe a few of our hostas...

I am sad that the plants are lopped with the feasting

but the forest horse wants noms

and noms they will have

I will share


ooooo more lilies


here's the lilac

planted a year ago

one lil section of blooms this year

and they were glorious!

hey...

that's the end of the pics...?

man

I thought there was at least one more pic 

of the froggy in our frog pond

where'd it go

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

well kk

that's my gratitude break for today...

sigh

why can't we just play gratitude all day...

what are you grateful for today

I wish you all well

wear a mask

vote for Biden

bobs yer uncle

yes!


















Friday, July 17, 2020

Ha Ha Ha Nothing to see here!

Ive always thought of the way my brain works

as having wild horses in my head


They only want to run free

this is my biggest struggle

Right Now

with how everything is going

that instability 

&

I know ya think ya gunna come up an wanna interact with me

but I see ya comin

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd

I want no part of it

its come down to this

I am more myself

when Im by myself

I am more productive when 

Im left alone

and Im only truly happy when Im engaged in 
some sort of creative pursuit

and no one will probably read this 

and that's ok

I just have to get some words outta my head

if they stay in my head I feel like 

my brain will rot

***

Im ok with rebirth

Im ok with reinventing 

Im ok with change

I feel like this is a great time to become less fake

more real

chances to choose what's more suitable

maybe these were decisions we should've made before

but we needed a push to make them

Im not afraid of hard work

my whole life feels like its been preparing for this level of adjustment

LIFE DOES NOT HAVE TO BE CONSTANT COMBAT

with your ideals

with what you thought life was 

what you want your life to be

&

when it comes down to how you are treated

you back away from the instability

you don't need it

you've known it for a long time

and that lil voice inside your head 

that has been trying to guide you

trust it

***

but what am I really even saying

who cares

you don't know me

I don't know you

we all have to get over it

all of this is essentially a blip in time

a blink of an eye

that glimspe of the wild horse in the distance

somewhere you can't walk through

brush and reeds

knee deep waters and currents 

where do those horses go

you might not ever find out

I paint to tame them

maybe these paintings are my salvation

maybe they just pass the time

the lil voice at the back of my mind 

says

they are me

and they are ready to live