67: Temporary
Temporary orbit
Satellite
Of mine
I’ve let you go
Find
Yourself another
Pull
Of gravity
You left me
In the dooryard
With
Only one assignment
Erase time
No one knows
I live
Fully here
Behind
The locked doors
Do you remember
Being 23
Not full
Of worries
There was
Only me
I live
Life
As a ghost
Can you
Detect me
Is it odd that it’s raining today and I see my next word cake has water in it? Hello universe, I see you. We are a couple of days out from our first vaccine dose and I don’t really feel any different- but that’s not saying much bc my body is pretty tired chronically and achy... today’s major issue is back spasms- the kind that grip you if you sneeze cough or turn to quick... buh... anyway- it’s Sunday and hubs is makin waffles. What are you up to?
66:
Water shoes
Feral
Water shoes
Bruised
And
Carried
By
Imaginary friends
The carers
The unseen
Unsettling
To some
Not
To those
Who
Have no choice
But to
Hunt barefoot
Well, tree work is almost done- here’s a lovely pic of what the neighbors call “the berm”. I’ve been using the roof rake to pull the peak away from the trees we want to keep there before they begin to show damage from the heat and moisture... should be good work for a bit. Gotta love mulch.
65: Wall
I was in love
With a wall
Big
Jolly
And
Tall
I thought
It was whole
Till I
Found a hole
Then I realized
She was letting evil through
Some items of hers
Mixed in
With my joy
And now
I spend life
Breaking free
I was once
In love
With a wall
Turned out
She was a prison after all
Only a civ
To let poison in
Where now
It’s my lens
To the world
I am full of adrenaline with all of the going’s on today- last day of tree work - can’t wait for it to be done- having 100 ft tall trees within 20 ft of the house removed finally- some plants are being destroyed in the process- that’s just the way it goes when you have to fit a crane and other large machinery in all the spots- in two days I will be all no worries about it- just takes me a minute... we will be treated to more sky views and more glorious peeks at sunsets. Totally worth it... hoping to get some garden vlogs going soon... what are you all up to today?
64
Walking
On
Air
Glass
Hot coals
Egg shells
Sunshine
63: Feral
You
Can’t
Wonder
Why
I act
Feral
When
You kept me
Locked
Away
At arms length
Flowers
From your attic
Will
Always rebel
62: Balance
He ruined
Your floors
Lil price to pay
For the secrets you kept
Let
The sucker
Take
All
Of the wind
From
All
The sails
Sip
Sip
Sip
Hope
That room
Full of apples
Haunts you
More than
The ghost
Left behind
More than
The thought
Of
Those
Left behind
Human shields
Sent
In
Like a bot
Cleaning up your mess
Or
At least
Keep it close
For no one
To know
Still
Waiting
On
The
Balance
61: Vampire
Professional
Lurker
Sweet
Vampire
Reverse engineering
Gifts
Dismantlement
And
Pills
I’m only happy
When you cannot read my lips
Sleeping
With
The lights on
Feeling
Something
At
The end of the bed
Protective
Whispers
From shadows
Kept me safe
Lost sleep
And
Conversation
With
My only
Guidance
Today is our anniversary! Yay! Something to celebrate!
The world is not normal and I am not “normal”...
In the throws of having no resilience, after being in a pandemic for more than a year. I’m supposed to be stronger than this - that idea is not helpful- I threw it out the window.
Our diy wedding was the reason I started the blog...
My brain is running on zero spoons- so I sit here with a kitten on my lap...
listening to the tree work we are having done- which I’m not as happy about like the first time... it’s taking care of the problem trees we have and improving our light and moisture issues- but my brain is so wired to see the problems and the energy I don’t have to deal with any extra details or decisions... you think I would’ve known that maybe now is not the time to add anything extra to my daily thought process... but here I am with a kitten on my lap... busting my ass to distract myself out of yet another panic attack...
This rage all comes from a twisted perception of hardship vs comfort... and I’ve had too many hardships in the last few years that now I mostly see hardships exclusively. I mean the snappy quips and not taking any BS edge I’ve developed is quite amusing at times- but I can live without the freeze. The can’t start my brain in the morning- can’t make decisions- forgot the laundry downstairs & now I have to wash it a third time kinda stuff...
I’ll live- whatever- I just hope that someday I get my core back- I miss me...
Do y’all know what I mean?
60: Dragon
Hidden eggs
Marching legs
Poisoning the well
Hypnotic eyes
Breathing fire
Taking everyone down
Deer in headlights
Dinner kept secret
From all those hungry eyes
You thrived
While champions didn’t exist
They may have
Only been asleep
While mastering
The art
Of rebirth
A challenger
Made their plans
To sheath their swords
Deep
Deep
Deep
Into the sea
Of your lust for blood
Miraculous legend
Epic
Example
Of fate
All will bare witness
To
Pure
Evil
Turning to dust
Swept away
With the tide
Deep
Deep
Deep
We should
Let every last pheromone Lose its potency
Let all the affected re-discover their senses
Before we begin to dance
Leaving nothing to chance
One drop of dragon spell
Is enough
To ignite
And turn
All of the clocks back again
Turn all
Of the roads back again
Change all
Of the Minds back again
To
The
Deep
Deep
Deep
59
Caught me
Trying on
The normal
Reeled back
&
In the bucket
Am I
The next meal
Kept
Like a ghost
In the dark
The mannequin
In
The attic window
How can
A shadow
Make
Friends
58: In The Game
Ulterior interior
Brooming and grooming
Threads to threats
Suggestion & frights
There’s
No mistaking
This figure
In the dark
The bellowing
Wind
Calling out
Danger
Frozen
To play dead
To lessen
Your satisfaction
In the game
You taunt
Me in
57:
Like
A pleasant
Lil visitor
From the ether
Textures
&
Thoughts
My mind
Is both
Active
&
Relaxed
For just a moment
All
Tension
Fades