Hey 3 followers
3 musketeers
Here’s 1 new blog
I have very little hope that our slow internet will
Actually let me get this done...
Gloom n doom
Yadda yadda
here I sit, although today it’s raining
There’s Charli Girl...
Here’s Kit he is 1 sassy cat
Now here’s me...
No picture...
Just 1 person
Counting my spoons (maybe 3)
Do you know that invisible illness analogy?
It’s a good 1
I was looking back at some of my old fall blogs...
Wow I had so much fun and energy...
Dare I say it was spritely ???
Do y’all have a favorite 1?
Well, I’m not sure what’s happening this year...
This 1 year
It’s almost next year
Maybe by this time next year...
I’ve had a number of days
And a fair number of happenings
That have taxed me in 2 ways
And I would say 3...
1: mental
2: physical
(3: emotional)
But I definitely feel like the 2 in conjunction
Made 1 weird combo that made the 3rd
Short circuit here and there
Of course this has added up to a perfect storm
Of Chronic Fatigue like symptoms
Yay
How’d ya know what I’ve been wanting forever
You just know me so well
Thanks Universe
Lol
Now the number of things
That I feel or don’t feel
Like doing
Or whatever
Mount up
I’m not making good choices
Because I can’t concentrate
Unless I’m working
Because work has clear boundaries
Rules
It’s regimented
It’s so relaxing
It is the saving grace
The 1 saving grace
The rest is like 1 of those sci-fi movies
Where the person
Who can pick up on all the cacophony
Of the subconscious realm
all of a sudden
Can here all of the thoughts
From all of the people
And all of the happenings
All at once
1,000,000s of things
That’s me
And when I sleep at night
My dreams are like one of those
Robert Altman films
Where you scan the room
And all of the conversations
Are happening all at once
And you can only pick out two words
Or 1 phrase
Here
Or
There
On top of that
Body aches that wake me
As I toss n turn
I’m waiting this thing out
Editing down
Things I would like to be doing
1 by 1
Hoping I’ll be able to dig out
1 step at a time
Throwing everything I know
About healing
About life
About counting spoons
And respecting the truth in that
I’ve spent the last 10 months
Pushing
Now I will spend however long it takes
Pulling myself back up
1 fistful of metaphorical rope
At a time
I hope you all have been doing well
Enjoy all the fall blogs that are here
I will see if there are more than 2 pics to share
Of this 1 fall
Make yours a great 1
Share if you can
XOXO
~JM