Fall 2019: Season of Math

Hey 3 followers 

3 musketeers 

Here’s 1 new blog

I have very little hope that our slow internet will 

Actually let me get this done... 

Gloom n doom 

Yadda yadda 

here I sit, although today it’s raining 

There’s Charli Girl... 

Here’s Kit he is 1 sassy cat

Now here’s me...

No picture...

Just 1 person 

Counting my spoons (maybe 3)

Do you know that invisible illness analogy?

It’s a good 1

I was looking back at some of my old fall blogs...

Wow I had so much fun and energy...

Dare I say it was spritely ???

Do y’all have a favorite 1?

Well, I’m not sure what’s happening this year...

This 1 year

It’s almost next year 

Maybe by this time next year...

I’ve had a number of days

And a fair number of happenings 

That have taxed me in 2 ways

And I would say 3...

1: mental

2: physical 

(3: emotional)

But I definitely feel like the 2 in conjunction 

Made 1 weird combo that made the 3rd

Short circuit here and there 

Of course this has added up to a perfect storm 

Of Chronic Fatigue like symptoms 

Yay

How’d ya know what I’ve been wanting forever 

You just know me so well

Thanks Universe 

Lol

Now the number of things 

That I feel or don’t feel 

Like doing 

Or whatever 

Mount up

I’m not making good choices 

Because I can’t concentrate 

Unless I’m working 

Because work has clear boundaries 

Rules

It’s regimented

It’s so relaxing 

It is the saving grace

The 1 saving grace

The rest is like 1 of those sci-fi movies 

Where the person 

Who can pick up on all the cacophony 

Of the subconscious realm 

all of a sudden 

Can here all of the thoughts 

From all of the people 

And all of the happenings

All at once

1,000,000s of things 

That’s me

And when I sleep at night

My dreams are like one of those

Robert Altman films

Where you scan the room 

And all of the conversations 

Are happening all at once

And you can only pick out two words

Or 1 phrase

Here

Or 

There 

On top of that

Body aches that wake me

As I toss n turn

I’m waiting this thing out

Editing down

Things I would like to be doing 

1 by 1

Hoping I’ll be able to dig out

1 step at a time

Throwing everything I know 

About healing

About life

About counting spoons

And respecting the truth in that

I’ve spent the last 10 months 

Pushing

Now I will spend however long it takes

Pulling myself back up

1 fistful of metaphorical rope

At a time 

I hope you all have been doing well 

Enjoy all the fall blogs that are here 

I will see if there are more than 2 pics to share

Of this 1 fall

Make yours a great 1

Share if you can

XOXO

~JM