Vulnerability - Epic

Everyone wants pockets 

In their garments 

Yes

In their memories 

Not so much

I hold many items

In pockets

Attack

Lies

Campaigns

Scores

Lights O’ the Gasse

Financial and Emotional 

AND 

Physical 

Sabotage 

The interactions are few now

And I see

The people 

And the plants

And feel the need 

For the point blank vulnerability 

Which 

Requires 

Heavy unloading 

And severing connections 

To my pockets 

Full of blood coal

Reaching in 

Hoping to eliminate 

I grasp

And CHUCK IT

Only leaving 

My hands 

My digital feelers 

Fully dusted 

In the remains of a broken heart 

As it can be 

Noticed

It can be recognized and avoided 

Who has time for that

What renders 

A folk

Unable to ask

Is the same that baked them

In shame from the start

The second another being 

Comes round

The minute aching need

Creeps in

Back in the shell please

I’m not wired 

For such things 

I am plugged in

To my pockets

Attached 

To adhesive 

Sticky

Moments

That buried 

My ability to be vulnerable 

And in turn

Cripples my 

Ability to find 

Such

Suitable 

Situations

To be vulnerable in 

I Spoke To Trees

If you could 

See my eyes

The roiling sea inside 

How it brews

A particular storm

It would blow 

You all down

We would all be felled 

By the way

They all yelled 

At a vulnerable 

Conductor of love

Pixilated

Pixilated 

Hard to see

Haze

On the Lense

Is there a switch

Program 

Update

Place to power down

Where are the ways

To tune up

Overhaul 

Reboot

In time

To regain my place

Within exposure 

To all elements 

Of love 

And life

So someone can see

Anyone can see

For now

I sit

Pixilated 

Bedroom Makeover: Overdue! Part 1

Needs: paint

Needs: Fabric 

Need: Elimination of Clutter!!!

Okay! Let’s start … with fabric! 

I’ve got just about everything I need here

Took off the sheer, plain old dollar store panels 

So much dust!!!

I turned on our air filter to level 4!

Left that on for the day 

Don’t need any extra dust mite allergy troubles.

When we first moved in 

The windows provided a lot of needed light 

And over the years we have taken down 

Many of the huge and dangerous pines that were 

Within 25-50 feet of the house.

Since we are on a hill and 100ft from the road 

We felt no real need for curtains right away with the trees obscuring some of the view etc…

But now… so much light floods in! 

It’s amazing! 

But not if you want to sleep past sunrise…

It is glorious

…

The moments of trying to catch up with lost sleep tho…

Became 

Well, really only possible if 

It was an extremely cloudy day…

Moving some furniture aside to easily get up 

Onto the trusty step stool…

Found loads more dust, and three pairs of shoes! 

Lol

Oooooooo

Lookit!!!

Curtains that are the right length!

I think I want to get rid of that rug now 

Lol

Mr Kit

Are you impressed? 

Next I get the new sheers in

And I will start on the next wall o windows!

No really 

What do you think?

Awww 

It looks so cozy at night!

Just about done with this wall…

At this rate I may actually have 

this curtain project done 

before the end of the week…?

Whaaaaa????

I will try not to jinx my motivation.

I will try to keep plugging away! 

So far so good… 

Did that jinx it…

Hope not lol

May we all stay motivated!

x~J

I Tried

I tried

To get

To search

Compile 

Weed through 

The rocks

Crannies 

Bastard memories 

Fitted

Perfectly 

In jagged

Puzzle slices 

Games of my mind

Soaked in salt

Mean as teeth

Sinking in

I tried

Sifting 

I tried

Parting these seas

I tried 

Weights pulling 

I tried

I’m down

I tried

You will have to do 

Your part now

And believe 

Lovely Shell

 

More to come

As I bewitch 

These bones

Down a hall

With a pipe 

Full of fog

Grey

Like the matter

Am I getting 

Madder

As I listen 

Ear pressed close 

To the rails 

Any vibration 

Any waves

As this cold 

Cold 

Cold

Wave

Hits

And pours over

The well traveled 

Lovely shell

I’ve become 

Neglecting My Duties?

I’m supposed to be hosting

Probably posting

Have you seen what I’m toasting?

Over and over again

Sitting in the window

Watching the worlds

Dog walkers and birds

As I copy down words

The studio calls

Music from jaws

Vanilla and pause

Taking it every bit of the time

Lining up bookcases

Collections in a line

Spending my time

Giving updates

Putting up gates

Reacting to walls

Touching walls

Shelves on walls

Myself on walls

Today

Tomorrow

All of the time 

The weather here has been super cruel

And cool

Keeping us busy

We’re still rearranging

Keeping us from engaging

Going through all the things

Learning as we go

And painting

More pictures from the studio to come

x~ J

Ps~

Got majorly, distracted this week with some music I found

Wet leg

Ren

They are both from England

Amazing fun to listen to and so creative

It was a serious rabbit hole

Go check them out